Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Questions

Is it just that I'm tired and hormonal and ready to be done with pregnancy? It has to be that. Surely these wouldn't bother me so much if I wasn't already cranky and miserable, right? Or does every pg women hate hearing these same questions over and over and over... and wish you could give the answer that's REALLY on your mind, instead of the "smile and be polite about it" one?

1. When are you due again?
November 6.
The simplest answer for this one really is to just spout off the date. But come ON. How many times do we have to tell you? And how many times do you really need to ask?

2. You STILL haven't had that baby?
Yes I have. I just loved the look so much I stuck a basketball under my shirt.
It's a pretty obvious answer. Why point it out?

3. So how are you feeling?
I'm swollen all over, my back hurts, my boobs leak and I haven't slept well in weeks. Getting comfortable is impossible. I'm carrying around an extra 25 pounds and have a person inside of me who can't sit still for 5 minutes. How do you think I feel?
I actually had a conversation with our minister about this one very early on it my pregnancy. Once people found out I was pg, they stopped with the standard "Hi. How are you?" that prompts the polite "Fine, thanks. You?" No. I don't think I've heard "How are you?" since getting pg. Each and everytime now it is "How are you feeling?" And trust me. You don't REALLY want to know.

4. What did the doctor say? Any news on when?
That I'm pregnant.
This one always comes from people who know you have recently had an appointment. But I just don't know what they are expecting the doctor to say. I'm pregnant. I know they're hoping to hear that I could be going into labor soon and how big the doc thinks the baby will be. But... it's a DOCTOR. Not a fortune teller. I've known women to go in at 38 weeks and show absolutely no signs of progress and have their baby that night. And just as many women to be dilated to a 3 at 36 weeks and not deliver until 42. I just don't put much stock into any of the numbers and all I really want to hear at the doctor is that baby and I are still doing fine.

5. Any contractions yet?
Only Every. Single. Day. for the last 15 to 20 weeks. Who cares?
Rates right up there with the numbers at the doctor. Braxton-Hicks. Practice. Lots and lots and lots of them, but they do nothing. They don't mean a thing if they ain't got that scream...


And last, but not least... and certainly MY personal favorite to answer:
6. When are you going to have another one?
You're kidding, right?
Let's see. It took us 2 1/2 years to get to this point. One miscarriage. One surgery. Many doctor visits. Multiple procedures. Fertility drugs. Heartbreak. Frustration. And this baby is not yet safely in our arms. And you think I'm ready to discuss another one. Thanks, but I'd like to love and appreciate this little miracle for a while, first.

Monday, October 30, 2006

39 Weeks

I woke up yesterday morning with some slight swelling in my hands. Not uncommon. They're swollen most mornings, but usually after I'm up a while they return to normal. Not yesterday. They were swollen most of the day and by last night, my ring finger hurt so bad I couldn't take it anymore. So... with the help of some lotion and gentle tugging, I pulled my wedding ring off. And then I cried about it.

And today, I feel completely naked without it. It hasn't been off my finger longer than 5 minutes (drying my hands, getting the ring cleaned/checked, etc.) since hubby put it there 2 1/2 years ago. I absolutely hate that I can't wear it now. And have this horrible fear that the swelling won't go away and I won't be able to wear it again without having it sized. Granted, I would prefer that over having to have it cut off at the hospital because of swelling. And I know if I end up with an IV I'll certainly get puffy from that and would be miserable with it on my hand. So, I do realize it is for the best right now. The hubby graciously pointed out in an effort to make me feel better, that it is pretty good I made it to 39 weeks with it on my hand. I know lots of women who have to take theirs off much, much sooner. But I feel so lost without it.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

38 w 4 d

Once again, I'm posting the update a couple days late. I'd like to say it's because I've been so busy. But... instead, it's simply because I've been taking care of myself and being a bit lazy. That and my mom was here most of the weekend... and she doesn't know about this blog, so I was too afraid to post while she was around for fear she'd walk in and question it.

Let's see..... I went to the doctor at 38/2 because I'd started in the night before that with a racing pulse. It started around 8 on Tuesday night while I was sitting at the computer. I laid down and almost an hour later hadn't really noticed any change, so made the hubby take me up to the store to check my blood pressure in their machine. My bp was okay, but my pulse was just over 100. YIKES! By the time we got back home and I laid down again, I was feeling better and could tell it had slowed, so decided to just go to bed and call the doctor in the morning. Next morning when I woke, just walking to the bathroom and back to bed I was extremely winded and could feel my pulse racing again, so called the doctor and went in to the office to be seen.

My blood pressure was still a higher than what is typical for me, but within the normal range and nothing they were too concerned about. My pulse was normal the entire time I was there, it just has episodes where it starts racing. As a precaution, they hooked me up to the monitor for an NST. Baby was his active self, kicking so hard at one point he knocked the probe loose from the belt and it had to be reattached! Since all looked good with baby and me at that point, doctor ordered me to stop working and just stay home and "take it easy."

Friday, at 38/4, I went back in for a follow-up. Blood pressure was still in the normal range, the pulse episodes had gotten to be much less, and the water-retention weight had gone back down. Phew! The whole "take it easy" thing seemed to have done the trick. But... in an effort to keep it down... I will not be returning to work before baby is born. And since I wasn't planning on going back after he's here either, I have suddenly become a stay-at-home-mom-to-be! I had planned on working up until baby was here... so the leave is a little sooner than expected... but I'll take it.

Admittedly, it has been very hard to sit at home all week and not want to be up doing and cleaning and organizing. You tell a nesting pregnant woman to stop nesting and see how well she takes it!!! It really overwhelmed me by Thursday night and had me rather freaked out. But, after a chat with my mom, she calmed me down by graciously offering to come help this weekend. The hubby did up the dishes, wiped down the counters and cleaned the stove top. Yesterday, mom came and scrubbed the bathtubs and swept and mopped the bathroom floors. (I had already cleaned everything else in the bathrooms before I was ordered to rest). Today, she came over, wiped down all the kitchen cabinets, the refrigerator, and swept and mopped the kitchen. As well as cooked dinner for us. Part of me feels bad for her working so hard and me not doing anything to help... but I know it's best for baby and me. And I am sooo grateful to have her do all of that. I feel such a relief knowing the house is clean before we bring baby home.

And in all of this, my wonderful hubby has been even more wonderful. He was already doing tons around the house to help out... and now that I'm doing less, he's doing even more. The most I've done all week is a few loads of laundry... and for that I'm not even allowed to carry the laundry basket without him jumping in to help. He's cleaned and scrubbed and lifted and moved and anything else I need that might be strenuous and cause my pulse rate to go up again. He's quite happy to insist on doing if it means I'm resting. I would certainly be lost without him!

So... it's been a long week. I'm feeling much better about it all than I did a few days ago when it all started. And I'm even better tonight sitting in a clean home. I can rest without looking at every tiny little thing and wanting to nest and clean. (and believe me, it was just tiny stuff at this point). Thankful for an understanding and helping family. And anxiously awaiting this little guy to arrive...

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

The Nursery

I know I said these would be up yesterday. But, last night we decided to go buy a new digital camera before baby arrives. Ours was dropped earlier this year and just hasn't worked the same since then. So... we found one we liked that was in our price range and made the purchase. Which means today, I got to play around with it some and use it to take pictures of the completed room. Well worth the slight delay... at least in my book! So here we go! BabyR's nursery, just waiting for him to join us and be in it.

It was two months ago that we made our first trip to Lowe's for paint to begin the nursery. It's hard to imagine that back in August, the room looked like this:



Two months and many hard hours later, (not to mention a few dollars) this is what it looks like:

Inside Armoire:Armoire Closed:

The Build-a-Bear Collection (well, part of it, anyways), on the shelves Daddy made:

Changing Table:

Rocking Chair, recovered by Grandma, with the quilt over the back of it:

Crib:

Inside the crib:

Dresser, restained by Daddy:

Rug:

Valance, with a few alterations by Mamaw:



And, as a joke today, when Grandma came to visit, we hung this on the wall in the place his name will be (she currently refers to him as "Baby No Name"):


And, of course, since Mamaw calls him something different, we put this up before she came by to see the completed space:


It really does bug them that we won't share what his name is... so we just couldn't resist having a little fun. Baby will be here soon enough, and then they'll know.

Monday, October 23, 2006

The Numbers

280: Days considered to be in a "normal" pregnancy.

266: ACTUAL number of days pregnant from conception (the medical world is wierd in how they calculate that one... I can explain it if you really want, but would rather not) .

266: Also the number of days I've been pregnant (based on the first number).

14: In theory, days left until BabyR arrives.

9: Number of days I'm guessing.

1120: Diapers it is estimated we'll change in the first 16 weeks of BabyR's life.

10: Vaccination shots to be expected for BabyR in that same time span.

9: Trips to the bathroom in a 24 hour period, on average.

20: Liters of water I drink, per week, on average.

1440: Minutes a day that we anxiously await BabyR's arrival.

960: Minutes a day I'm hoping he'll decide to hurry and come out. (when I'm asleep, the pains of pregnancy no longer have me wishing he'd get moving, since I don't really notice them then)

3: Gallons of milk I go through in a typical week.

2: Average weekly trips to feed my Taco Bell craving.

4: Times a day that BabyR gets the hiccups.

1 Exciting Journey.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

37 w 4 d

I know, I know. Today is actually 37/6. But, 37w 4d is when my last dr. appt. was and I'm trying to stay consistent with previous posts. I just haven't had a chance to sit and blog until now.

All still goes well. My uterus measured 35 1/2 cm. A tiny bit smaller than the 38 I was expecting... but I think that's just because baby has dropped some. Doctor wasn't concerned, so I won't be either. I was slightly saddened to step on the scale and realize that by next week I will likely break the 180 lb mark. I was up 27lbs for the entire pregnancy... which is really good... but it was still a sad realization for me.

The doctor finally did an internal. 50% effaced and no dilating yet. Someone please explain to me what in the hell all of these contractions are doing if they aren't making me dilate! I'm having them more and more often and their getting stronger every day... so I thought for sure SOMETHING would have changed by now. After the doctor left the room, I had a conversation with my cervix. I thanked it for doing such a FABULOUS job of keeping this baby in. Especially since we were concerned about how it would do in the beginning. And then I told it that is could now relax and stop working so hard. It's okay to let the baby come now. We'll see if my talk had any effect...

The biggest "concern" was my blood pressure was up. I was in there on Monday to have it checked because I felt like it was up. Baby wasn't moving as much either, so they had me come in to be hooked up to the machine to check baby and contractions and have my bp checked. At that point, my bp measured LOWER than it had at any point in pregnancy. On Friday, when I returned for my routine appointment, it was HIGHER than it ever has been. 136/84. Still within the "normal" range, but on the high end of normal to the point my doctor mentioned it. She was glad to hear I'm only working part time and told me to take it easy as much as possible in hopes of keeping the bp down.

But... I checked it last night when we stopped at the store, and it was still up. And today was screening day at church, so I had the nurse check it for me this morning. 144/96. Definitely creeping upwards. The dr and I didn't discuss what will happen if it is still up next week. But... I have a suspicion, that since I'll be almost 39 weeks, if it is still up (or has gone even higher), there will be talk of induction. We just might be having a baby next weekend. I may call the nurse tomorrow and discuss it with her... just so I have a better idea.

With that in the back of my mind though, it was QUITE important to me that we get things finished up around here. The hubby had to redo two of the dresser drawers for baby's room... but those are drying tonight and will be in place tomorrow... and they are the last items. Everything else in the room got finished up this weekend. There's a few things to clean and put away in the dining room and kitchen... and I'd really like to scrub the bathrooms down... but that's all that's left. (Well, that and a stack of papers to file away-- but that is very low on my priority list at the moment. ) Then the whole house will be ready for baby to come home. I'm only working 2 days (4 hours each day!) this week, so I should have plenty of time to do some cleaning AND still rest and take it easy, too.

Once the dresser drawers are in place tomorrow, I'll be taking pics to share. The room is absolutely perfect and I can't wait for you all to see it!!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

YAY!

The changing table is here and is FINALLY correct! We picked it up tonight and I refused to leave the store with it until they opened the box and we checked out each and every piece. I was so anal about it, I even counted the screws for attaching the rail. But... there was NO WAY I was making a trip to BRU again for yet another changing table issue. Thankfully, all was good with it so we brought it home. It is all set up and looks beautiful.

I'll be finishing the nursery this weekend... and can't wait to take pics of it and share with you all. I just might have everything done before baby gets here, after all.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Pictures

Remember this shirt?? Looks a lot different so many months (and pounds later):


And because I haven't posted one in a while, here's the belly. I just want to brag for a second and say that while I was at the doctor's today and the nurse was hooking me up to the monitors (long story, but all is okay), she commented on how beautiful a belly it is... MINUS stretch marks (yes, I've been lucky there):


And... though I suddenly don't recall if I even mentioned it on here... last weekend we had maternity pictures taken. They came out BEAUTIFUL and I am very, very happy with them. They are now available online, for your viewing pleasure:

https://www.smilesbywire.com/home.asp?AC=LTPP0807105996JCP

There are a couple of pics in there that it seems EVERYONE points out when they see them. Let me know which ones you like. I'm having a hard time deciding what to order. You will have to enter my customer name which is "Kat" and then my last name. I know, I know... some of you may not even KNOW my last name. Given that it is the internet, there are SOME things you have to keep private on here. LOL! (nevermind all the talk of feet in stirrups exams, and cervixes, and baby-making, and...) If you do not know my last name, email me. Tell me who you are and how I know you (which place on the internet, blog, etc.) and I'll make a decision about giving you the info. Sorry. Best I can do.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

How HARD is it??

Can someone please explain to me, why properly ordering one piece of furniture is so freaking hard for Babies R Us???

Two weeks ago, we went in and placed an order for the armoire, changing table, hutch, glider and ottoman to complete Baby's room. Obviously, it was a LARGE order and we spent quite a bit of money at their store (just on that purchase... forget the hundreds of other dollars on other things). We were told the standard "7-14 days" for it to arrive... with the glider/ottoman taking 4-6 weeks due to it being special ordered. No problem there. The glider wasn't the priority. We just wanted the nursery furniture so we could finish getting the nursery ready. We were told the 7-14 thing for the crib and it arrived 1 week later, so we figured this stuff would be about the same.

Sure enough, one week later, we had a phone call that the furniture was in. YAY! We made arrangements to use FIL's truck and to get my brother here for some muscle to help carry the stuff and to pick it up the next night. So, we get there last Friday, they have the 3 pieces for us and bring them out to the vehicles. The first thing they bring out is the changing table. They leave it with us and go in to collect the other two things. While they're inside, the hubby is looking and notices a hole in the box. Looks closer, and whatever went through the side of the box had put a big nick in the table. Not a big deal to me if it's on the back side. We'll just make them open the box and let us look at it first. Or so I thought. I go over to look at it more closely, and realize... IT'S THE ENTIRELY WRONG COLOR. GRRRRR!!

The armoire and hutch are fine. We load those up and they get the manager about the changing table. They don't have the right color in stock, so they'll have to reorder the piece... but they'll give us 15% back for our trouble. Upset and disappointed (having been looking forward to doing baby's room entirely last weekend and now learning that won't happen), we reorder... and do appreciate their efforts to "make things right" by offering the discount to us. We get the reorder taken care of, and are told they'll call us when it's in.... 7-14 days. Everything else has taken 7 days... so we figure on getting the call in a week (which would have been this past Friday, the 13th).

On Tuesday, we get a call that the glider/ottoman have arrived. Cool. They were supposed to take much longer, and they're here early. A very nice surprise. And a bright spot in the whole changing table dilemma.

Friday comes and goes. No phone call. Seems a bit odd, since everything else arrived right on time and the glider even came early. But... there was a holiday in there this week, so maybe that's the reason. Understandable. We'll give them until Monday, and then if nothing, we'll call and see what's going on. (Since I had this fear that the reorder hadn't gotten done right and we'd be waiting forever.)

As it turns out, the reorder was done properly. We went in there yesterday for a couple of things and thought we'd check on the changing table, since we were already there. Turns out, it had arrived on Friday... it just was labeled differently than usual, so they didn't catch it in order to call us and tell us it was in. GREAT! My day has been made! We have the last piece, can take it home and I can finish up the room.

Not so. We get it home and my brother comes over to help unload it. (It's 150lbs... way too much for me!) The guys bring it in and take it out of the box. It's all assembled except to put the legs on it and the "galley rail" (that little rail that goes around the top to hold the changing pad in place and help keep baby from rolling off.) We start looking. The parts for the rail are nowhere to be found. Go to put the legs on. One of the crossbars is missing so there's no way to attach one of the legs. Can you say "MAJORLY Pissed off pregnant woman?!?!"

The hubby calls BRU and explains the problem. Tells them this is already a reorder, and they put him straight through to the manager. She wants to thoroughly search the back to make sure they don't have another one, and to see if there's maybe one they can get the parts from, so says she'll call us back. She does. About 15 minutes later... so a good response time. But... there's no extra piece. Which means they have to REORDER the damn thing... AGAIN!!! And there's NO way they can get it here any sooner than the 7-14. Which means, yet another week before we get the thing in and can finish the room. Fine. Order it. And the broken one is sitting in the nursery, waiting for the new one to arrive and then they'll tell us what to do with it and will "compensate" us again for our trouble.

If it arrives at the 7 day mark, it will be 3 WEEKS we've been waiting on the damn changing table. This piece of furniture has become my nightmare. I have stacks of cloth diapers waiting to be washed and put away... and still no place to put them. We have a dresser in the garage that is only partly stained... since we spent half the day yesterday dealing with the nightmare piece, instead of being home for the hubby to be staining. So... I still have no place to put all the clean clothes that are currently piled in his crib. And the setback also means hubby wasn't able to get around to hanging the shelves yesterday, either.

On the bright side, we did get the living room furniture rearranged. The pack-n-play and the new glider/ottoman now comfortably fit in there and we don't feel like we're tripping over things. And I vaccumed and dusted and at least feel like I got something productive done before the kiddo arrives. And there's no Colts game today, and the NASCAR race was last night, so there's a good chance I can get the hubby to work on things today, too (Sunday is usually his "play" day for sports watching). So I know it will all get done. I'm just sooo ready for it to be done NOW so I can stop worrying and working and rest a bit before there's a baby in the house.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Lump

Went to pull a picture off the memory stick that I needed for something else, and discovered these. Forgot we had taken them a couple weeks ago. Gee... can you tell where baby is??

Sunday, October 01, 2006

34 w 4 d

Had a dr. appt on Friday. At 34 w 4 d. All is well. Baby has flipped into the head down position, so just a matter of time. Dr said at this point if I go into labor, they likely won't try to stop things. At 34 weeks, the survival rate is very close to 100%... though it's still early than they prefer and would likely mean a little NICU time. But, after pointing all that out, and telling me I'm on to weekly visits from here on out.... my doctor actually commented on what a BIG milestone this is for me to be crossing. See. Another reason I love my dr. She understands just how long and trying this journey has been (having been there with me the whole way) and isn't afraid to celebrate in it with me.

Yesterday we spent the morning out running around. Went to Borders and picked up a few books (one for me, three for baby). Went to BabiesRUs. Exchanged the breastpump I'd gotten as a gift and bought the bouncer we wanted for baby. Went to lunch. And then the electronics store where the hubby bought a camcorder to have for baby... like a true "new dad." Came home and placed orders for the rest of the diaper supplies we needed to complete our cloth "stash." (Did I ever mention on this blog that we're doing cloth? Or was that just on baby's blog? Someone, please let me know...)

While we were out shopping, got a great deal on some fabric to recover the glider we're putting in his room. We ordered a new one with a matching ottoman for in the living room, so are putting the old one in his room for when we want to rock in quiet. The fabric goes perfect with the colors in his room... and was only $6/yard... compared to the original stuff I had picked out that was $16/yard. And I like it soo much better! :-) MIL came by in the afternoon to see the crib and took the fabric and cusions with her. She was so excited, she did the whole project last night and gave us the newly covered cusions back this morning at church. Looks wonderful!

Surprised me she got it done so soon. Especially, since I got the sense I somewhat offended her when she was here. She brought some "gifts" for us... knowing we still had things we needed. Changing table pad and cover, bottles and a snowsuit/bag thing. She asked if we already had something like that for him, to which I replied yes (because we do) and that you can't really use them with the carseat anyways. Not trying to be ungrateful or anything... but she did ask. She pointed out that it has the little slit in the bottom of the bag to put the seat belt of the carseat through, so then I had to explain that even with that, they aren't recommended because of the way the extra bulk can affect the way the shoulder straps work, putting baby at risk.... and that I just am not willing to take that chance. (Not to mention, the bag was clearly too big of a size) She said it was no problem, she'd just take it back... but I felt bad. But... she did ASK. And, of course, then she asked if she'd gotten the right bottles, because she grabbed them thinking they were, but without checking them on the registry. Naturally, they weren't the ones I wanted. So then I felt even worse. But, geez. Quit asking! I'm not going to lie about it... even if it makes me sound like an ungrateful, hormonal pregnant witch.

Went through all the shower gifts and got everything sorted out and started putting it away. Will have to wait for the furniture to get here to put most of it in. But... the furniture was all ordered last Thursday, so should hopefully be here by next weekend for us to get all of that taken care of.

Work was just getting to be too exhausting for me. After putting in 9 hour days, I've been coming home completely wiped out, so have had no energy for cleaning and sorting and organizing before baby gets here. So, I've also reduced my work hours starting this week. Now I'll have a few extra hours at home in the mornings I can work on getting things done around here before I go into work for the afternoon. I feel so behind on everything, and am hoping the extra time will help.

I'm still dealing with the "shock factor" that we're about to have a real, live baby. Excited. Nervous. Wanting to get everything done and ready. Hoping he gives me a few more weeks to do so. Anxious. And almost ready...